my dog

is the best little thing in the whole wide world. he means so much to me and i honestly don’t know what i would do without him. he just has so much unconditional love for me, the way he cuddles with me when he senses that i’m sad, the way he licks any cut he finds on me until they’re clean, the way he follows me around the house and snorts and sneezes until i pick him up and cuddle with him. he’s just so full of love and it really is one of the most beautiful things in the world. he has no bias, makes no judgements about me or the things i do. he’s basically human in my eyes and i know he’s always going to be there for me, pawing my arms until i pick him up or pay attention to him, watching me with those huge owl eyes, cuddling with me when he senses that i’m down. i love him so much.

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finally had good, drunk sex

this time there were no strings attached and that just made it so much better. i think it was just the feeling of not being lied to at all that made it good, because we both basically agreed before that we were just fucking and there was absolutely nothing that would come out of it. i just loved the feeling of not having to worry about any kind of emotional attachment like that. it definitely helped me enjoy myself more. idk this is a really dumb post but i just had this kind of revelation and i really had to write about it. i’m realizing now that the reason i always got so hurt after having sex was because i was always promised something. they always promised that they cared about me, that they weren’t just using me. and even though i knew that wasn’t true at all i went along with it anyway, and the feeling of disappointment afterwards was what really got me. i’m really excited about this whole thing though because i actually liked having sex and i’m definitely going to do it more often.

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Anonymous asked: you should post more pictures of your self. i miss seeing your face.

i’m always too lazy to take pictures of myself but i’ll try for you anon

i’m really fucked up

no matter how much i want a boyfriend, or someone in my life like that, there’s always going to be a part of me that knows i can’t. i’m just like my dad. i ruin things, beautiful things. i don’t know how but i always do. i fuck things up no matter how hard i try and that’s how it’s always going to be. i spent 7 years being brainwashed by my dad and even though every day i fight to make it go away i’m always going to carry that with me. he will always be there, the monkey on my back, whispering in my ear. telling me i’m fat. telling me i’m ugly. that’s why i can’t be in a relationship. it’s my burden to bear, not anybody else’s.

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when i was around 8 or 9

i had this friend who i basically hung out with every day in the summer. she was a grade or two below me and i kind of only hung out with her to pass the time. one day we were in her room and her mom who was really strict was yelling at her for doing something really stupid and little that i can’t remember now. she was in tears on her bed and i was just there comforting her. then out of the blue she just turned to me and said “i wish i had your life. i wish i could be you.” and there was something so serious about the way she said it, like she actually meant it with all of her heart, and i suddenly got really really scared. i didn’t want her to have my life. i didn’t want to switch places with her and have to live in her house, with her crazy parents and gross little brother. for the first time in my life i realized that i actually liked my life. i didn’t want to let it go. i’d spent my whole life wishing i could be somewhere else, somewhere magical and beautiful where i could have adventures, but there this girl was wishing she could be me and i found myself wishing with absolutely everything i had that her wish didn’t come true. i didn’t just like my life, i loved my life. i loved my mom and my dog, my room and all of my things. i loved my house and my backyard with the zipline. and most importantly, i loved myself. i didn’t want to be somebody else. i wanted to be me. i wanted to be me so badly and that night when i got home and was safe in my own bed i actually prayed, for what was probably the first time in my entire life, that no matter how badly this girl wanted my life, that she couldn’t have it. i prayed to keep my life because i loved it and the people in it and i wouldn’t trade them for the world.